Written by: Ascian Kolya
Humans are selfish for wanting to survive more than to be in love. Allow me to elucidate.
We live in a society where everyone is running towards the known. Albeit living in the moment has been an ideal way of thinking among the majority, one could never avoid the fact that they are abandoning every impediment of reaching the corporate ladder. A common obstacle, as such– today's generation's greatest fear– the childhood trauma.
Refined from the lessons learnt in between the pain and the void, each one of them would transpire into different kinds of behaviours, into a variety of results. A comically, loathing product that strives to be perfect, as the innate of a human is to become someone other than themselves. We endeavour into the mirror of ourselves, so much that we have decided to sacrifice a substantial thing– in one of our traits– to keep on living as the moral standards of an ideal society. Between each are born to either be allowed to live or to die, it depends on how our usefulness could ameliorate the world. The more it demands, the less likely one would keep its promises to ‘change’ everyone’s fate. It is in the idea of one to be able to survive for their own sake and sees the death of those who could not make it with utter guilt of satisfaction. When superiority claims, a human– a typical kind of what a human would do– is to never realise that they will forever indulge in these sins of being a perfect being.
Now the problem about this fact is that, most of them begin to slowly trespass (yet eventually, impossible) into a colourless/ful, fictional life; in which is often strangely idolised as the ultimate dream. Much likely, the more you show your strength, even as a feminist; you will crave for a society’s validation of worshipping towards your ‘true’ identity. The futuristic thinker that will forever be loved by the machines; that’s how you want it to be, without realising the fact that you– have unfortunately, been selfish with your own emotions and let it die.
In the anatomy of a human, we have the mind and the heart. People are born to work on their mind but they were never taught to not repress their heart. And slowly, we begin to live in a world where we ourselves decided to kill that heaven of being transparent to our own feelings, for the sake of reaching something that you thought you will ever achieve. You unintentionally hurt others because you thought it is the utmost superiority to do so, and it is by far the most ethical way to protect yourself when it actually brings devastation to everyone including you. “But I don’t feel hurt in any way when doing so, it doesn’t affect me” unfortunately it will, and it will proceed to the next and the next generation. It’s not about you thinking you will be in permanent pain by acting so; it is the way that your other unwanted emotions will dominate over your true feelings. Anger, disgust, unstable elation, numbness, constant physical pain, constant narcissism or dark empathetic behaviour.
Sadness is not the only emotion that one would often think, “that is the weakest emotion to ever feel”. That is not the only emotion that will affect you. That is not the only emotion that you loathe so much because it is toxic to yourself and others.
To be someone that doesn’t show their sentiment to others is not an act of prestige. It’s an act of selfishness.
And one would wonder why the world in the renaissance days was so expressive and erotic. They were being real. They were like shattered glass thrown to the deepest ocean when love is uttered. They found intimacy in both romance and platonic relationships. They crave for raw knowledge, they crave for growth. They know that they are human and they need a flame to light up their heart.
But grief for those who decided to kill this part of life just to reach the american dream. Without realising, you have killed your own soulmate because of your own selfishness to dare thinking that love is complicated.
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